Numb...

Do you ever just feel numb? No emotions... You can't cry, you laugh, but you aren't really laughing? Maybe its just me, but the last few weeks have been so intense and so busy that I sat down today and realized that I don't really feel anything. A little transparent, yeah maybe. Especially after seeing a tornado rip through my town and devastate homes, you think I would be overwhelmed with emotion. Now don't get me wrong it broke my heart, but sometimes you can just feel numb.  I know that many Christians probably experience moments like this. It's moments like these that remind me of Martha, the one lady in the Bible I often find myself relating to the most. She was so busy making everything pretty for Jesus, working so hard preparing for Him hat she forgot the one thing that her sister Mary understood. That regardless of what is going on in life, nothing is better than sitting at the feet of Jesus. Four weeks after the tornado and I am just now taking the time to reflect on what Jesus has done. On just how incredible it has been to see this city come together and to see lives restored and to see families turn their heart to God. I just want to kick myself sometimes for constantly acting like Martha when I know that everything I could ever need or want can only be found in His presence. How is it that we can be so consumed in preparing for something that we forget what we are preparing for in the first place. I remember being a teenager in love. I would spend hours getting ready picking out that perfect outfit, or hours with the person just talking on the phone. I would even get up early if it meant just another moment with that special someone. So when it comes to my first love, why is this a challenge? I found myself repenting because on top of being busy with working I have also been so busy preparing for Ecuador that I almost forgot why I am going. Thankfully I serve a God who pursues me and as long as I seek Him He will constantly keep me where I need to be. There has been so much uncertainty and destruction in this world in just the last few weeks that so many have forgotten or don't even have a clue that there is a real hell and enemy of our soul fighting against the plan of God. People are busy, fear has overtaken so many with the tornadoes, with the end of the world nonsense, hope has been lost and so much more. I am sick and tired of watching Satan win again and again. Its time to leave our Martha Mentalities. God showed me something so cool about this story that I have read a million times. Martha was preparing but Mary was fighting. Instead of preparing its time we realize the battle has already begun and that the answer is Jesus. We can't work without purpose and we certainly cant fight without God's help...... A little reminder.